Thursday, September 8, 2016

The Curious and Most Curious Sightings in London


London is a town for the curious.  Even the youngest engage intensely with this immense metropolis.  We have not actually seen many children - most gaze from prams or are heading to school in their shorts and sturdy shoes, but those who were out-and-about we observed playing with joyful and intent concentration.  The girl above seemed like she was in a glass case herself.  In the Victorian and Albert Museum she read quietly about the maker of that extraordinary piece of glass.

 The child below was sitting on the edge of the fountain in the same museum.  I've spotted others throwing leaves, sliding down banisters and chasing birds.  Or chattering away with excitement standing on the edge of curbs - buses and black taxis swishing by their toes.  


Mostly one wanders in crowds.  Even late at night, the little alleyways in Soho or Convent Garden are jammed with jostlers.  Rarely are the streets entirely empty.  Likewise the museums.  I caught this photo of my sister looking down into a gallery, where artifacts are examined, cleaned and repaired.  I had to wait between people ambling by to take this photo.  Imagine this space with only whispers and the quiet clack of heels.    


 I loved seeing the lady below.  She is my most curious of sightings.  I so admire her courage to wear these colors!

 And this man his chartreuse pants!


Most curious?  All of those tourists taking photos!  And shame on them.  Taking selfies here in the Shard's elegant restaurant.




Monday, September 5, 2016

Signage


I am visiting England for my daughter's graduation from Oxford Brookes Architectural Studies.  One morning we gathered in a tiny coffee shop on Cowley Road and on the wall was this little sign.  The author, Saul Leiter was an American photographer.  I think, that had he been wandering with me in England, he would have been taking photos of signs.  The British have a most unique manner of signage, which to me, indicates a different philosophy than that of Americans.

Take the sign "Way Out".  When I see it, I feel like I having been wandering a deep woods and through my own skill and capacity have finally found a path out.  I feel capable and excited.  The American version of this sign - Exit - feels more like a command and it doesn't make me feel the least bit competent.  Likewise, the British sign "Help Point" graciously acknowledges that I may be at a loss - a very human condition, whereas - Information - implies that there is data available.
    

 And then there is the humor.  British humor.  Can this be on purpose?  According to the sign below is the toilet really disabled?  And do the parents haul around baby changing facilities?  Only some parents or all parents?


"NO! At any time."  What does the sign below mean?  The British again seem to leave the interpretation up to me.  I feel in control.  I love it.



I shall be careful with my bills.


The British are watching to see what I think of their philosophy of gracious signage.


Wednesday, July 6, 2016

Dream House


I dream of houses with undiscovered rooms.

I dream of a ranch house with a back door that opens into an unexpected series of rooms like those in a shotgun house, one room leading to another in a straight line stretching out across the backyard and then oddly over the property line shouldering aside the neighbor’s shed and mysteriously continuing on, one room after another straight over streets and even through other suburban ranchers.  I dream each room is bare of furniture and the floors are covered with linoleum.  I never find the end of that straight stretch of rooms in a ranch house, even though I have dreamed of it over many years. 

The Victorian-styled house of my dreams has only one undiscovered room.  This room is an octagonal one on the second floor.  Its discovery quite delighted me in my dream and I recall trying to figure out how its existence could have been concealed from me. The answer of the room’s location went unresolved (dreams have architecturally imprecise plans).  Returning to the octagonal room on another night, I decided that it could be my writing room.

However, my favorite set of imaginary rooms is on the third floor of a white Colonial house, which is set amid trees on a pleasant corner lot.  These rooms are furnished – a suite of them – with white curtains blowing in a breeze in the bedroom.  They wave to the white coverlet, its folds tossed aside as if someone just arose from the unmade bed.  The rooms speak of morning, of slippers shuffling across the Persian rugs, and of pleasure – the shelves lined with books (only good and worthy books).  The layout leads one in a circle through the rooms – each with large windows through which are the tops of trees in summer leaf.  There is no bathroom, but once I found a door leading to what appeared to be a maid’s laundry room.  In the opposite wall from the entrance to the room, there was a small exterior door with a window in it.  In my dream, both stooping and stepping up, I came out onto a tiny roof porch.  Sitting in the low striped cloth beach chair that I found there, I could hear the sound of children’s laughter as they played ball below me, unaware of my presence high above them.

I don’t know what to make of these dreams.  But last week, when an appraiser arrived at my doorstep, intending to assess the value of my very real 1904 Queen Anne house, she entered with a clipboard in one hand and my real estate sale flyer fluttering in the other.  She was flustered having arrived two hours late (a family emergency) but smiling as if presented with some delicious house puzzle.  She startled me with her introductory words.


“I couldn’t make sense of your real estate flyer – too many rooms.  I couldn’t place where they all might be.”  She waved the flyer in front of me with its colored photos depicting the house, the yard, the living room and the huge long kitchen and dining room.  The flyer read, “5 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms”.  For a flitting moment, I was afraid that, as if dreaming, I had made up its inexplicable claims of lots of rooms and then the appraisal would come in too low for the new buyers to get a loan.  Waving towards the house next door, she said, “I appraised that house a couple of years ago and from the street, yours looks to be about the same size, but that house has only two bedrooms.”

From where she stood inside my front door, she could see through the kitchen doorway to the big glass-fronted mercantile cabinets hanging high up on the wall and the schoolhouse style fixtures dangling from an unseen ceiling – both speaking of a generous room.  She listed in its direction as the location from which to begin unraveling the mystery of the diminutive house with the big claims.



Once upon a time, this was a modest house with an outhouse, a stable and an unfinished attic.  It had two exterior back porches – one on either side of the thirteen-foot-by-thirteen-foot square kitchen.  (I know this from the public library’s fireman reference book.  Before the book’s retirement, it would be scooped up by the firemen on their way to an emergency in order to determine the layout of the house on fire.)  Eventually, a bathroom with a flush toilet and a laundry room were constructed on the footprint of one of the back porches.  The laundry room’s rough ceiling boards acquired a painted cardboard-like covering.  I removed the cardboard with a steamer a couple of years ago and white washed the boards.


By the fifties, the other porch was enclosed in order to make an eating area and Olin, the previous owner, installed its big corner windows and then he expanded the space by moving a wall inwards.  Gary and I remodeled the kitchen once again, pulling out the drop ceilings, removing an awkward mid-century wall and making a wide welcoming room.  When it was first completed one of my friends, Anne Weatherill, came by to see the completed work and as she stepped into the space, she actually lost her balance as if a huge chasm had opened up and surprised she almost fell in.



The appraiser peered in and up.  She stepped in gazing about.  I explained how I had spotted the kitchen’s cabinets in a field and yelled at Gary, “Stop!  There are my kitchen cabinets.”  They were originally mercantile cabinets from North Powder, Oregon.  They took two years to strip using dental tools removing all of the white paint lodged between the bead board cracks.  Now they were mounted on the wall, refinished with a deep dark brown stain.  The appraiser stepped around the center island counter and pulled out the striped cutting boards admiring the workmanship.

Room by room, we walked.  Me telling the tales of how rooms appeared in the attic.  How 1895 newel posts now stood at the foot of a stairway that didn’t exist fifteen years ago and how new dormers elbowed their way into the roof structure.  







When I showed her a photo of the downstairs bathroom, which once resembled a mobile home windowless room and now was transformed into a light-filled space, she said, “Let’s sit on the couch and look at the photos.” 



When I dream of houses, I wander them alone.  I found it pleasing to guide someone through my real rooms – one surprising space after another.  Finally, we walked the yard and as we stood in the shop/garage with its wide back door open to the shady stream area, she noticed the opening and said, “You have a stream.”  I have always thought of this outdoor space as another “room”.  The willow arching overhead like a ceiling, the hammock like a bed and the metal table and chairs the dining room.  The stream is the cat’s drinking bowl.  Yes, yet another room.



Finally, preparing to leave, the appraiser said, “One would not know what is here from the road.  The rooms and this yard.”  

I think now that I should have titled the real estate flyer:  Dream House. 




Sunday, May 22, 2016

Magpies, Bees and Saws


My backyard is not a silent place this time of year.  As I trim bushes, cut flowers for the house and rake, I'll be called from the task by the raucous sound of a magpie flying up the creek or a bee near my ear.  During one recent morning, I heard bumblebees, the baby ducks, a magpie and mourning doves.  The stream gurgles around the rocks; its sound rising to my consciousness when I shift from my task to noticing some specific event like the first arrival of the dragonflies this season or the blooming of the purple allium.  I forget that I can record the sounds, but here are photos of this noisy place.

I have been tossing rocks into this stream to hear their lovely "plunk" for years.
The silent willow attracts the birds.
Some years I have few bumblebees.  So far I have heard four this spring.
The bleeding heart was transplanted from my last house.  It hosts the bees.
This rose called "Playgirl" had a million aphids but the sound of a rain storm seemed to have washed them away. 
The noise of this photos is one of chopping rhubarb for pie and the sound of sniffing the smell of iris.  
The title of the blog post mentioned "saw".  This is the source of the saw noises.  This is where I am spending most of my time as I get the house ready to sell.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Eight Steps for Mapping the Topography of Grief



                                       Eight Steps for Mapping the Topography of Grief

11.)   Begin by naming places on your map that you do not want to forget.  The name of your loved one, the beginning and the end.  You have become a toponymist now, a namer of places.

22.)   Draw the elevations, the ridgelines, and deep, deep canyons.  You will need such places from which to scout a route or to hide on those wicked days of sorrow.  The proximity of the curving elevation lines will determine which routes will be too steep and which, even on difficult days, will give you a sufficiently wide ledge upon which to lay, contemplate, and pray.

33.)   Add cities, suburbs, flash-by-towns, tree houses, trailer courts - places where you might find commiserating souls.  Mark them.  Coffee shops, internet cafes, libraries.  You will need details.  Start with one location.  Two.  Color-code your options for levels of hopeful contact.

44.)    With permanent ink, illustrate the location of the cemetery or with dashing and swift lines show where the ash and bone fragments flew from your hand.   Footnote the epitaph.

55.)    Add the rivers and the seas.  Find where the tears flowed in streams and eventually washed onward, beyond you, joining others in the salty waters.  Designate the lowlands where tears seeped back into the earth, nurturing fresh life.

66.)   Design roadways, byways, lanes, and paths.  If your grieving is brief, then you will need only one super-highway upon which to hurry off to other pages of your map book.  Otherwise, draw your roads crisscrossing.  The spaces inside the grid design will look like sticky-notes.   Leave them blank until you have regained your interest in details, in observations of hilarious and obtuse facts.  It will happen.

77.)   Draw a rectangle.  In it, put the title: The Key.  Grieving causes forgetfulness.  Map keys are important to maintain your sanity, to remind you where you have put things of significant import and feeling.


88.)    Lastly, sign your name at the bottom and date the map.  One day this map will be stored and then, only occasionally, will you take it out to reexamine it.  Noting its date, you will realize that time has passed and you have left the Map of Grief and traveled onward.   


Preface to Mapping the Topography of Grief - a Travel Memoir

Sunday, April 24, 2016

What Will Be Left Behind


For the past twenty years, when I turned onto my street at night, the singular yellow street light on a very long block marked my driveway (and a fire hydrant).  It seemed like a little blessing as if I somehow deserved a special welcome home light.  As I prepare to put my home on the market this spring, I have been intentionally watching for the lovely things that I have been gifted by this home and which I shall miss.     


Chives, my little cat, sunning on the old stool that I use when I prune the grape arbor.


The spring exuberance of the hens and chicks in the early morning light.


The popping open of the Oriental poppies.  When the big green buds come close to bursting, one can pull the green sheath open just the tiniest amount and the flower will burst out with a whoosh.


I shall miss the little pathway that leads to the stream.  The willow becomes so dense at times, that the way is obscured.  I have sent my company out to the table by the stream with them balancing their dinner plates and they have returned plates still in hand - discouraged at being lost in such a small yard. 


I will miss that big old willow by the stream.  From the house, I love watching it wave in the wind and once a hot air balloon scraped across its top.  My daughter learned to climb it with tree climbing gear and visiting children and I would swing out over the water by sitting in its little metal swing.  


The stream.  Its gurgle has been a satisfying backdrop to hours of weeding, the movement of the hammock and the labor of picking raspberries. When I bought the house, ever so long ago, the six letter word "stream" in the ad was the singular motive for looking at the house.   As I move away to my cabin, where I can hear the river, I will know that a portion of that river's water will tumble by this lovely old house and yard.  I could send the house notes of fond remembrance on the currents.  


I shall miss the strawberry bed and strawberry rhubarb pie.


Maybe I shall even miss the mowing.  It is my weekly forty minutes of aerobic exercise.  I suppose the I could offer the new owners mowing services.  Maybe.